“You will develop cervical cancer…that is, if you haven’t already.” Those were the words spoken to me by my doctor when he revealed my biopsy results on July 1, 2013. An instantaneous feeling of fear overcame me. The word cancer is a big deal. Pain, anger, sadness, hopelessness and death are what generally follow a diagnosis of cancer. I’ll pass! The truth is, no one wants cancer.
This little kick to my butt has spurred within me a fight. My journey will be different from most because I have chosen to take a positive, natural and holistic approach to healing.
Here’s the deal: Everyone has cancer cells in their bodies. It’s the diagnosis of cancer that is feared. What is a diagnosis of cancer? It is the point your body reaches when it is no longer able to find these abnormal cells, realize they’re foreign, and kill them. They are growing and possibly spreading to different areas of your body.
I’m sure it might be a strange thing to hear that I love my cancer. I love my cancer because my abnormal cells are a part of my body and it is something that I will always have. To love my abnormal cells means I won’t let it become destructive to itself or me by continuing to spread. If I ignore it, upset it with treatments that only do more harm to my body or feed them sugar then it will only be more destructive. Turning hate into love for my own cancer cells was the best decision for my health. Not only do suppressed emotions lead to a suppressed immune system but also continually being stressed, negative, and upset will allow cancer to thrive.
I hope that by sharing my story, others will be encouraged to discover their own path to healing.
This is My Story…
2010 My journey began when I had my first abnormal pap smear. I was 20 years old and confused with what it all meant. The doctor wanted to wait and see if my low-grade cervical dysplasia would heal on its own. She told me to try to start adding more vegetables to my diet because it might be beneficial.
2012 Another abnormal pap occurred this year and this time it was a little more severe. My doctor strongly suggested I come in for the cryosurgery treatment to freeze the abnormal cells. Yet, something felt wrong when I received this phone call and here’s why:
- Very impersonal. The doctor didn’t have the time to call me but instead had her nurse inform me.
- Mass treatments. The doctor dedicates a full day for administering this “treatment” on more than one woman so it wouldn’t take place until the following month. This made me feel like I was part of a herd of cattle and my condition must not be that serious if treatment isn’t needed right away.
- No HPV or hormone testing. Why wasn’t a HPV test administered or at least offered to find out if that was the cause? Not every case of cervical dysplasia is caused by the HPV virus.
- Not treating the cause. Freezing the abnormal cells would be painful and doesn’t solve what was causing the problem, which I was unaware of at that time since no HPV or hormone testing was done. It seems the most logical way to treat an illness is to solve the initial problem.
I started to do my own research on the Internet to find answers. All of the information I found was confusing and sometimes conflicting. There were multiple blogs, naturopathic websites and books that I gathered information from. It was so overwhelming that it only started to cause more stress. I started eating more vegetables and fruits but definitely not enough. Like many other people, I didn’t grow up eating healthy meals on a regular basis. It was my parent’s fault as the food pyramid encouraged less fat and more carbs. I didn’t know how to prepare these meals and it felt like there was no time to do it, if I could even afford such a healthy diet. I gave up trying and just stuck with my occasional green smoothies.
July: More than a year passes by and finally went back for another pap smear. At this point, I was expecting the same results. I found out a week later that I was right about my results still being abnormal and this time they came back borderline cancer at a CIN3 diagnosis. There was a deeper area he could not biopsy and could possibly already be cervical cancer. My new gynecologist told me he would need to perform a LEEP procedure immediately. I asked the success rates of him performing this procedure and how many of his patients were still able to have children. These questions were obviously a nuisance to him as he replied that all of the women who were still his patients after the procedure didn’t have a problem. I didn’t dare ask why the other ones didn’t return. What bothered me the most was he had no data to back anything he said.
My diagnosis of CIN3 was the motivation that I needed to make a change. I immediately dove deep into research regarding why my body wasn’t fighting off the abnormal growth of cells. I made a huge shift in my diet and starting taking supplements to boost my immune system.
November: Three months later on my new diet and my CIN3 reversed back two stages to a low-grade dysplasia. I found a naturopathic doctor in Scottsdale, AZ, that specialized in treating Cervical Dysplasia. My parents wanted me to have some sort of treatment done as I had finally opened up to them about what I was going through in October. Before Dr. Hansen could start treating me with the escharotics, he had to give me another pap smear to see what stage I was at. It was this pap that showed my cervical dysplasia was back to CIN1. This was great news because it proved to me that my diet really does affect whether my body can fight off the growth of abnormal cells.
2014 After a few months of receiving the escharotics treatments, my pap smear came back the same. I was still at a low grade cervical dysplasia, CIN1. I felt defeated and fell back into my routine of unhealthy eating.
2015 October: My mother was diagnosed with the most aggressive form of brain cancer, Glioblastoma Multiforme Grade 4. She was given 2 – 5 months to live. I moved back home to become her full-time caretaker. We researched and implemented numerous alternative forms of holistic treatment for her brain cancer including the Ketogenic Diet and Cannabis Oil.
September: My mother passed away from the brain cancer.
December: My cervical biopsy revealed that I had finally healed from my cervical dysplasia. It was my mother who encouraged me to seek another holistic doctor for treatment a few months before she passed away. I will write another blog post on exactly what I did to heal completely.